I Have Everything I Need (Leaving)…

“But what about your things?” her boyfriend asked “I have everything I need” was her reply as she walked away. That’s what Libby from the show Masters & Johnson said as she decides to take off on a 35 mile walk with a bunch of strangers she happened upon while stuck in a traffic jam because there are thousands of hippies migrating to some sort of peace rally in the 1970’s.  I loved It so much because it’s true, I have everything I NEED, my mind, my body, my health, my happiness, confidence in my ability to take care of myself, my spirit, I truly have everything I NEED.  I was thinking if I didn’t have kids and a husband (that I love all the time & like most of the time ;)), coupled with the fact that my kids are always tell me I’m not living in the time or the place I should be living.  They say I was born 20 years too late and I should have been in my 20’s in the 1970’s and living near the beach.  They know I’m at my happiest, best self when I’m near the beach and it’s sunny and above 75 degrees!  Before we got our air conditioner I used to walk around our house in the afternoons in the summer doing my chores in a bikini because I was so hot, my kids would be horrified and say “mom this isn’t a beach house and what if someone sees you”? And I’d say “well I can pretend” I still put my bikini on and lay on my deck and read my book whenever it’s the weekend and it’s nice out and pretend I’m at the beach or at the very least by a pool ;)!  I think about that scene in the show as Libby just walks away from her life into the unknown and I think how freeing that would be to throw your hands up in the air and walk away or drive away from everything … knowing that YES you have everything you NEED and to be totally open and accepting of whatever it is that’s coming down the road, completely foreign to you, no agenda, no expectations …. hmmmmmm 😊I can daydream just like I  daydream I live by the ocean most days! 💛🏖💚

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Published by shannbenn50

First a little bit about me ... I'm going to be 50 in about 5 minutes, I've been married for 20 years and have two incredibly great teenagers, (albeit incredibly moody). I am a Capricorn and I'd say 99% Capricorn. I do yoga everyday and my husband says "for someone who does ("practices" is the correct term FYI ; yoga everyday you're awfully high strung", my response is "can you imagine me if I didn't do yoga everyday"? and his response is "I'd be scared"! I've been told by a number of people that I need to lower my expectations of people because then I won't constantly be disappointed. My husband says he tries to have zero expectations and then sometimes he's pleasantly surprised. :) Which is really great advice and may work for him but I'm having a hard time with it, and I don't want to lower my expectations, I want people to rise to my expectations (someone said to me the other day "who died and made you God")? So I've been "practicing" this mantra "lower your expectations, be more forgiving and compassionate & understanding" it has maybe worked a tiny bit. And then I came across this quote while in the throes of being disappointed by others "There is no good way or bad way. And the sooner we let go of expectations about how things are supposed to go, the happier we get to be." Which I wrote down and put in my nightstand from a book I read called "The Divorce Party" by Laura Dave. So I texted my friend that quote, who also has high expectations of people and who is also constantly let down and I said "perhaps my mother is right, she told me I have really high expectations of myself and so I think everyone else should be the same and they're not, so the sooner I accept that the better". And my friend's response was? "Lies, all lies! Of course there is a good way and a bad way, the GOOD way is OUR way"! For better or for worse I have to say I agree! "What is wrong with people?" was going to be the title of my blog because I constantly find those words coming out of my mouth ... but this "blog" has morphed into something else because it turned out I actually have a lot of positive good things to say and share about people, I shocked myself, so therefore I changed the title and the direction of my "blog/website" ... my initial emoji I was going to use was 😩 But now the one I want to use is ❤️

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