No one said it better than Dr. Seuss … “All Alone!  Whether you like it or not, Alone will be something you’ll be quite a lot.”  I LOVE to be Alone, you should know that about me. “And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.  There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.”  I can honestly say I’ve never been scared but I can tell you for the first time in my life I feel a bit lonely.  “But on you will go though the weather be foul.  On you will go though your enemies prowl.” I’ve been reading Glennon Doyle Melton’s memoir “Love Warrior” and she talks about how it’s okay to be in pain, to feel lonely, to feel scared, to feel angry, she writes “What if my anger, my fear, my loneliness were never mistakes, but invitations? What if in skipping the pain, I was missing my lessons?  Instead of running away from my pain, was I supposed to run toward it? Maybe instead of slamming the door on pain, I need to throw open the door wide and say.  Come in.  Sit down with me.  And don’t leave until you’ve taught me what I need to know”.  I started practicing yoga 25 years ago and immediately “fell in love”.  I loved the aloneness of it, the quiet, the non-competitive aspect of it, staying in your own space on your mat, and if there was discomfort or boredom or a desire to leave, if I could just stay in the quiet, the space of my mat, and the heat, and my body, and try to stay out of my mind and just try to BE THERE in the moment for one hour I’d have accomplished something.  I’m three quarters of the way into Doyle Melton’s book and now she’s discovered yoga and at first she’s been going to the same class, with the same teacher and then one day THAT class is full.  And the girl behind the front desk tells her “well you could go into another class which is hot yoga”  (the yoga I practice) it can be very intense and people either love it or hate it, there’s rarely an “in between” 😉,  And when she get in the room she thinks “what fresh he’ll is THIS?!?”, the teacher goes around the room asking everyone to state their intentions for the next hour (my teachers don’t ask you to say it out loud 😮) her answer is “my intention is just to stay on this mat and make it through whatever is about to happen without running out of here”.  STAYING!!! another blog post.  There is so much power in staying! Staying in discomfort, staying to see how things turn out instead of running away.  Staying through the pain and the sweat and the tears.  It’s easy to run, trust me I know!  Running, literally the act of physically running was my yoga in the past.  Doyle Melton says after “as they are lying in savashana & she is crying, and sweaty and snotty and yet the teacher puts her hand on her arm … and whispers to her “THAT  — what you just did? THAT is the journey of the warrior… now, don’t forget to breathe” She thinks to herself “why does everyone keep telling me to breath.  I’m alive, aren’t I? Isn’t it clear that I’m breathing”? 😂

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And what is the Journey of the Warrior?” I’ve been doing yoga for so long .. warrior one, warrior two, fallen warrior, humble warrior and sometimes when we’re in warrior two, I have a favorite teacher who will say … “YES, you! YOU ARE a warrior!” and I would just kind of smile (or roll my eyes 🙄😉), but after reading “Love Warrior”, I finally get it, we are all capable of being a warrior and the greatest warrior you can be is the “Warrior of YOU!” of your life, of your happiness of your well being.  And part of that, I dare say is learning to be alone and to feel comfortable in the aloneness.  When my kids were little I was quite literally losing my mind not having enough alone time, ask any mom, the hours between 5-7 (the “witching hours” as mom’s refer to it) can be so awful, everyone is tired and hungry and it’s been a LONG day especially if no napping went on ;).  My husband works really long hours and I am SO understanding (I did that job for 10 years so I KNOW!!!), but it makes those hours more difficult when you are doing it alone!  Eventually, to save my sanity I hired a sitter once or twice a week from 5-7 so someone else could do dinner, bath, tooth brushing & pjs & it was great, I’d go for a hike or yoga or meet a girlfriend for a glass of wine and it really helped.  Sometimes we need to figure out what we NEED in order to save ourselves, our sanity, our wellbeing in order to be a better mom, wife, friend to ourselves & others (aka “warrior” of our own life), but now the tables have turned and I am alone more often than not between the hours of 5-7 because my kids are now teenagers and I’m a bit lonely.  I’m alone most of the day because the kids are in school, I recently quit working so there are days that the only contact I have with other people is if I go to the grocery store & of course yoga. Which for the most part I love, but now those hours have become “the witching hours” again! Thank goodness I have my dogs, I take them for a second walk of the day around 5 to “kill” some time before cooking dinner and to wear them and myself out!



But I then have 6-7 or 6-8 to get through, so here’s what I do and most of you would say “that’s not so bad”, I have a glass or two of wine watch re-runs of Girls (my favorite show) while I’m cooking and all of the sudden a chore I hate becomes tolerable, I have seen every episode of Girls multiple times and I still “laugh out loud” ;).

from my friend Margaret she said she couldn’t resist buying for me 🙂

I guess there are worse things I could do!? Did Rizzo say/sing that In Grease? 😘 At any rate ALONE is something I am quite a lot and those hours between 5-7 have become yet another aspect of having kids that I hadn’t anticipated and I am trying to navigate and find something that works for me besides wine and re-runs of Girls!  I love what Doyle Melton said instead of “running away” in the form of escaping with wine & Girls maybe I need to “throw the door wide open and say come in, sit with me and don’t leave until you’ve taught me what I need to know”.  It just dawned on me that I act like I don’t have time to meditate and yet I have time to watch the same episode of Girls for the 5th (or 10th) time! It’s hard for me to sit still with me & just me and not move and to just be ALONE with my thoughts (that I’m supposed to acknowledge and then let go and then think about nothing and then be ok with the nothingness 😳😝, I’m practicing meditating … I promise!

You don’t always have to like it, but … “Alone! Whether you like it or not, Alone is something you’ll be quite a lot”. On and on you will hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are. You’ll get mixed up, of course, as you already know. You’ll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go.  So be sure when you step, step with care and great tact and remember that Life’s a Great Balancing Act.  Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.  And never mix up your right foot with your left. And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.) KID YOU’LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!  So …be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ali Allen O’Shea, you’re off to Great Places!  Today is your day!  Your mountain is waiting .  So … get on your way!” 

Alone! Without his buddy & loving it









Thank you Dr. Seuss for your many, many wonderful words of wisdom! ❤️❤️❤️


Published by shannbenn50

First a little bit about me ... I'm going to be 50 in about 5 minutes, I've been married for 20 years and have two incredibly great teenagers, (albeit incredibly moody). I am a Capricorn and I'd say 99% Capricorn. I do yoga everyday and my husband says "for someone who does ("practices" is the correct term FYI ; yoga everyday you're awfully high strung", my response is "can you imagine me if I didn't do yoga everyday"? and his response is "I'd be scared"! I've been told by a number of people that I need to lower my expectations of people because then I won't constantly be disappointed. My husband says he tries to have zero expectations and then sometimes he's pleasantly surprised. :) Which is really great advice and may work for him but I'm having a hard time with it, and I don't want to lower my expectations, I want people to rise to my expectations (someone said to me the other day "who died and made you God")? So I've been "practicing" this mantra "lower your expectations, be more forgiving and compassionate & understanding" it has maybe worked a tiny bit. And then I came across this quote while in the throes of being disappointed by others "There is no good way or bad way. And the sooner we let go of expectations about how things are supposed to go, the happier we get to be." Which I wrote down and put in my nightstand from a book I read called "The Divorce Party" by Laura Dave. So I texted my friend that quote, who also has high expectations of people and who is also constantly let down and I said "perhaps my mother is right, she told me I have really high expectations of myself and so I think everyone else should be the same and they're not, so the sooner I accept that the better". And my friend's response was? "Lies, all lies! Of course there is a good way and a bad way, the GOOD way is OUR way"! For better or for worse I have to say I agree! "What is wrong with people?" was going to be the title of my blog because I constantly find those words coming out of my mouth ... but this "blog" has morphed into something else because it turned out I actually have a lot of positive good things to say and share about people, I shocked myself, so therefore I changed the title and the direction of my "blog/website" ... my initial emoji I was going to use was 😩 But now the one I want to use is ❤️

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